Friendship

I almost feel like a bad person. Almost. Yes because I know that these friendships have somehow flourished for a decade, despite the haze. No because I know what is necessary for my well-being. I don't want to make anyone choose, but that's it, isn't it? Choice. Life is made of choice, and we need to make the best ones based on the information available to us, and our expectations for the present and future. I could have just let things go, but I can't because I'm going to be miserable every time this comes up. So now, we can either choose together, or one of us can make a choice, but that's not why we are together.

I wish I could just stop thinking sometimes because this gets EXTREMELY FRUSTRATING.